To the public, Mr. Big — the iconic, complicated love of Carrie Bradshaw’s life — died suddenly from a heart attack on his Peloton bike. But newly leaked behind-the-scenes documents suggest something far more chilling: Big may not have died from physical failure… but from a heart emotionally poisoned beyond repair.
An old hard drive recovered from Carrie’s apartment reportedly contained an unpublished essay with a controversial title: “Why I Never Chose Big.” Written in 2018 — just months before John Preston’s death — the tone was cold, analytical, as if Carrie was trying to justify something to herself. “He was a beautiful dream on paper. But in real life… I always chose peace over passion.”
No one knew the piece was ever printed. But according to an insider from post-production, Big had somehow read the manuscript — though it’s unclear how he got it. A leaked page from his personal journal, discovered by a member of the costume department, contained a single haunting line: “She loved the myth of me. Not the man.”
Instantly, social media exploded with a question no one was prepared to ask: Did Big truly die of natural causes? Or was it a heart broken open by the one woman he trusted most — through words he was never meant to see?
One media analyst put it bluntly: “If that essay is real, and if Big read it… his death is no longer just a medical event. It’s an emotional assassination. No poison. No betrayal. Just a sentence — delivered at exactly the wrong moment.”
Carrie has never acknowledged the essay. But writers from And Just Like That have vaguely hinted at “a narrative beat we left out… because it was too much for the audience to handle.” Perhaps this was it.
And now, fans are rewatching that final moment — Big collapsed on the floor of his workout room, gazing at Carrie with a faint, knowing smile. And they’re beginning to wonder: Did his heart stop because of strain… or because, for the first time, he realized he was only ever a supporting character in the life of the woman he loved most?
